Noelle Suzanne Master of Keys

“Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope.” — Maya Angelou

MKMMA Week 8 – Why Do I Wait?


Why do I wait? Why do I hesitate? Some times it is because I don’t know where to start, yet I fully realize it is that doubt in the back of my head. I give it clearance to stay wedged in my mind and it renders me immobile. That doubt tells me I can’t do it. There are other things I should be doing. Don’t bother trying to be better, just keep existing. There I sit, wanting to move on, but I feel paralyzed. In order to defeat doubt I think only thoughts that will benefit myself and everyone I meet. That is not an easy task. I sometimes give myself free rein to the negative. Why? I digress and drift backwards.


I must forge ahead with a mission, as I would face a white winter storm on a cold and lonely night. As I put my head down and push through the howling wind, I wonder if I bit off more than I can chew. So here perhaps, is the fork in the road. Everything was going along slowly but surely.  Then I came to that fork. Do I keep going or do I retreat? Should I let something go? Am I headed for a collision?

No, it’s just that little devil on my shoulder trying to gain control.

I know if I retreat I will have failed my mission. I can not fail. I will not. I am still fighting my way through this blog so it must mean that I have chosen to keep going. Okay, that’s my decision. I want to keep going because quitting is not an option.

I know I have the power to accomplish anything I put my mind to. There is no reason to doubt myself. Instead of being fearful of anything I concentrate my thoughts on achieving my dharma, my desires, my purpose in life. It may be a challenging task, but I am up for it. You see, I have lived this life of more than 50 years with as much grace as I knew how to muster at each given moment in time. Sometimes I was not so graceful. Sometimes I wiped out. Sometimes I gave up. Not this time. I keep forging ahead and I know the storm will dissipate. The sun will come out. I will feel it warm my heart. I must talk myself into it, not only talk, but act. Nothing will get accomplished if I don’t act on it.

The affirmation from Haanel, lesson 9, “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious, and happy,” clearly states my intention. It is what I want for my family, and loved ones. In order to inspire them I must keep going. What inspiration is there in backing down? I can not find harmony if I give up.

I complete this blog knowing I will immediately go pick up my guitar and sing ‘Emerson.’ This song was inspired by the Master Key Experience. Every time I sing it, I find myself in a place of peace. When you are feeling overwhelmed go find your special place. Linger there for a while and know you are love. Then come out, state your intention, and know that you are all powerful. You can achieve whatever it is your heart desires.

Love Noelle Suzanne



Author: noellesuzannemasterkey

I love many things, but first and foremost my family. I have three beautiful sons, now young men, a devoted husband, and a wonderful family. I love nature, dance, singing, writing, playing guitar, and connecting with people. I feel very lucky and blessed. I believe in the light of the universe and the good of mankind. Life is good. I am thankful.

10 thoughts on “MKMMA Week 8 – Why Do I Wait?

  1. You ARE whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy! The struggle IS real – think of the caterpillar. If not for the struggle, there would be no butterfly!

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  2. Oh the beautiful, sweet butterfly. I think that will be my next blog, my Blue Butterfly Experience. If you ever came to my house you would see butterflies flitting about, especially blue ones. They are not alive, but they represent something very close to my heart. Thank you for your wonderful words of encouragement always. I shall break through this cocoon for I know when I do, my wings will dry in the sunlight and I will take flight.


  3. Love this Noelle! Thanks for sharing! There is no testimony without the test!

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  4. I liked the way you eloquently described the challenges you are facing as you go on your journey. Just by the way you expressed yourself I see a greatness in you that you will soon come to discover. Keep the main thing the main thing. I beleive that you’ll be fine.

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  5. You’re getting lots of great advise – take it and mahalo for sharing!

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  6. Great post! My thoughts were very similar this week. Keep going!

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  7. Love is in the air ! feels so special to touch the lives of others and have my life touched by your inspiration !

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